I Need To Take Myself Higher....!

~I am challenge to fight the battles going on within my mind. My mind wants to wonder to all those situations that are bringing me down. Yet, I look to God and say "I need to stay focus on... only You" In Philippians 4:8 I am reminded to think on these things~

Philippians 4:8 (The Message)

^8-9Summing it all up, friends, I'd say you'll do best by filling your minds and meditating on things true, noble, reputable, authentic, compelling, gracious—the best, not the worst; the beautiful, not the ugly; things to praise, not things to curse. Put into practice what you learned from me, what you heard and saw and realized. Do that, and God, who makes everything work together, will work you into his most excellent harmonies.

~So I challenge my mind with this and even get interrupted with the thoughts that are upsetting me and (STOP)... myself... say as I am talking to Him... "God"... "Help me to stay focus!" and take my thoughts captive to this verse once again. Even in the midst of captivating my thoughts I find my body shaky for the challenges of my journey these past 3 weeks and up to this moment have taken me on a roller coaster of thoughts and emotions. Now I find myself writing this so maybe as I put down in ink some of my reflections along this journey... I can create and look at this like a part of the map.... that as I find myself feeling lost or controlled by the strong winds that seem to take me adrift... I can once again read this and set my course. In Mark 10:27 I am reminded that "With Me" this part of my journey ~is~ impossible...but "With God" to walk through this darken, wilderness ~is~ possible. ~and~ I am not to worry for like Matt. 6:27....can I even add anything to my life through worry...? So in Philip 4:6 I am not to worry... instead ~

Philippians 4:6 (The Message)

^6-7Don't fret or worry. Instead of worrying, pray. Let petitions and praises shape your worries into prayers, letting God know your concerns. Before you know it, a sense of God's wholeness, everything coming together for good, will come and settle you down. It's wonderful what happens when Christ displaces worry at the center of your life.

~hum.... Christ displaces worry at the center of my life.... Just like in my mind Philippians 4:8 says I can think of positives instead of negatives... By shaping my worries into prayers... He displaces the worry at the center of my life...I no longer have a sense of worry....but a sense of God's wholeness, everything coming together for good...will come and settle me down. I should reflect to this verse as a reminder of God's direction when Ronnie says.... "Terrie calm down"... this verse would be the direction to know how to calm down... for in myself to find calm is not so easy at times, but to take all my worries into prayers, to let God know my concerns... that is the path to take to find myself once again in that beautiful field of wild flowers with the warmth of the sun comforting my achy body and all I can do is to look up for His yoke is easy and His burden is light... I look up and smile as I say to Him... "life is good"

So I am on a journey and find myself on paths that are steep...rocky...cold and dark...I feel lost...I stop pull out the map and look at the roads...find a sense of direction...get caught up in my mind the couple turns I need to take...and press on in my journey...and believe I will find my way out of here!

~Fight The Good Fight~

~and take yourself to higher places~

So....In the Spice of ~The Art of a Housewife~ Part 2

So in my search...which I don't know how it lead me to youtube.....but I found this video....very disturbing to my hope in thinking my passion and desires for being a housewife could be encouraged in earlier years...

....I find this video....which leaves me in open mouth gasping.....no way...no wonder women have turn the course of things. The words shared...I believe is from a book back in the day...written to be helpful to a wife...to be a better housewife...?

....so in much disappointment... I wonder where is the zest for the passion of being a housewife... ...I do not take my passions lightly....I desire to be an amazing woman, sister, wife, mother, grandmother.... , but feel the world says..."just a housewife"........so in thought....several hours.....as I think of the off balances of yesterday and today...I wonder what can bring balance and that drives me back to His words.....

...yesterday and today thinking does not even line up with biblical words for us women....... How did we get off course... so in the upset-ness...which is so understandable...I see why women have turned the environment around....but it seems to be off balance....For I... as much am offended by this video with words from the 50's...I am tired of the down grading of men!!!! You see it in commercials, television shows... at times in people's speech...

...Did our fears of the past create an off balance in us now... How did we get so off balance and I ask myself where is the balance...... Which leads my mind back to our creature.... ...and in search for His direction....

....I see our creator loves us equally ...yet we as man and women we have our differences... ...the Proverbs 31 woman is of much noble character...strong.. intelligent...diligent... focused... hospitable... providing... nurturing... creative.... dignified... wise... intuned... honorable... admirable... ...I am sure so much more can be added here.... Then to find in Ephesians 5...Submit...begins here with...verse 21...Submit to one another out of reverence for Christ... ...I know I say Submit...and everyone wants to add a thought...but in calmness...lets relax and try to reflect on God‘s words...
......Submit to one another out of reverence for Christ.. ...which leads to the next verse in saying Wives, submit yourselves to your own husbands, as you do to the Lord....., but I do not think the verse 22 is forgetting verse 21~~~ I think I see my submitting to my own husband more like the...to give over to my own husband...to present ~ for his approval/support, (don’t take this lightly...I do not see approval as a quick permission!!!...that‘s why I added support...) ....I consider what he has to say....yet this is not without me as his wife having a voice....he hears my words and I hear his words...together we have discussions sometimes at length.. in this length of time he may change his thoughts or I may change mine...but ...then with prayer and respect I defer.... Our life is not so cut and dry...he says~I do...much depth ....maybe that could be more understood as reverence..... Anyway every couple needs to find their way...to what God means in all this for them..., ....but then God moves on to how the husbands are to love the wives....,.....could of I created this any better...? ...to love to those depths is a lifetime to learn and grow in.... .....So just a thought to add here...the beginning of Chap. 6 starts by saying Children, obey........ ....notice in all God instructs for the wife or the husband...He never says the word obey to either one!!!!!

I am to submit to my own husband in everything.... to give over...to present....to submit a plan(my ideas)....to yield oneself to another... .....I submit to my own husband....my love.........I share my thoughts, hopes, pains, visions, dreams, differences...as he shares with me......in addition to him sharing with me... he is to love me, just as Christ loved the church....I take my responsibility of submission...in faith...with much love and prayer.... I like when I come across with presenting myself in a humble manner...for like I said earlier...I see our creator loves us equally ...I am not better then my husband and he is not better then his wife .....then out of reverence......feeling...or attitude of deep respect to Christ....so in much prayer ...we find our way.... for us.... the direction God leads.

Where has woman or man lost their vision for all this....
............balance can only happen when we go back to our creator...
..........I love being a woman...I want to learn to be the best for me!

Notes from dictionary.com
~ Submit...
–verb (used with object)
1. to give over or yield to the power or authority of another (often used reflexively).
2. to subject to some kind of treatment or influence.
3. to present for the approval, consideration, or decision of another or others: to submit a plan; to submit an application.
4. to state or urge with deference; suggest or propose (usually fol. by a clause): I submit that full proof should be required.
–verb (used without object) 5. to yield oneself to the power or authority of another: to submit to a conqueror. 6. to allow oneself to be subjected to some kind of treatment: to submit to chemotherapy. 7.
to defer to another's judgment, opinion, decision, etc.: I submit to your superior judgment.
~Reverence...
–noun 1. a feeling or attitude of deep respect tinged with awe; veneration. 2. the outward manifestation of this feeling: to pay reverence. 3. a gesture indicative of deep respect; an obeisance, bow, or curtsy. 4.
the state of being revered.
–verb (used with object)
6.
to regard or treat with reverence; venerate: One should reverence God and His laws.

In the Spice of ~The Art of a Housewife~

In the spice...I decided to search some web pages for encouraging support for being a housewife. I chose to change the typical word of Homemaker...back to Housewife...for I felt we lost some respect for our skill...
So some sites I found in my quick search...
~ http://www.wikihow.com/Be-a-Good-Housewife
~ http://www.ehow.com/how_2094530_be-a-housewife.html
~ http://www.heksie.com/housewife/
~ http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Homemaker
(Well in closing this post...my internet was interupted...so I lost my closing. I was then discouraged to submit the post, but since then I have be traveling on my journey and fell I need to submit this unfinish post so I can continue on with the pages that are going on within.)

~I'm Broken~

~Video~
This video can relate to those who been broken and used...how to move through and keep moving forward...that is the road we need to walk on...oh and how tough that road is...but were in a trap...for to not walk on... is tough as well...so in the depths of your brokenness...find the little strength you have left and take a step ~ at a time...step by step... to find who you are...then hold on to what God has for you...for each step needs all you have~to keep moving forward!

(At top~Click the word video..... to view the video)

~What's This Life For~

Between this camera and Creed is.... Me :)
This song meant alot to me last year.....so needed... so freeing from being religious... and so focus on what is real.

~footnote~
black font......"Lyrics to the song~ What's This Life For" by "Creed"
The blue font...... are my words....

I say "Hurray for a child That makes it through"... as a child going through painful years and years..."If there's any way Because the answer lies in you "...trying to find the answer to survive took me to many misconcepted solutions...it was when I found the solution in You that I was able to walk it out.

"They're laid to rest Before they know just what to do" If one of my misconceptions would of succeeded...I would of been laid to rest. ...and obvious I didn't know what to do just knew something had to change!
"Their souls are lost Because they could never find ~~What's this life for " ...my soul was lost drifting to find the answers to ... What's this life for...

"I see your soul, it's kind of gray I see your heart, you look away"...you look away for you have a gray heart for you have the answers in you mind, but you do not live out the answer so as you see my heart you do not have the love it takes to reach out....so you look away...
"You see my wrist, I know your pain" hurt myself...hurt myself again...I understand the pain!
"I know your purpose on your plane Don't say a last prayer" ...oh no!! not saying a prayer anymore...for I am done with my hope in this thing people call God.... I no longer want to put trust in Him for if I trust in the Evil One...life might just lighten up a bit!!! I turned to all this because... "Because you could never find What's this life for "

"But they ain't here anymore Don't have to settle the score Cause we all live Under the reign of one king" No I am not here anymore....I don't have to settle the score...because I get it!...we all live under the reign of the One King...Jesus Christ...who settled the score and gives me the solutions and understanding bit by bit to the purpose of me on this plane...So now I say a last prayer...for I don't have to settle no God Damn score...because my trust is in the fact I live under the Reign of One King..... which is a much alive walk for me.....with depths of realness! in this I grow more and more...........



After the song...I think I can hear my scream :)... I did lose my voice............anyway...live on :)

~how I do what I do...?~

I find myself going deep here...
~first of all you see and hear what I do ~ you fail to see and hear what I fail to do.
I try to keep my focus simple which from time to time needs adjustment... Adjustment takes me to re-evaluate what is priority for me... I pray... search my heart... take a look at my family... Then as I start to find vision again... I fight... for there are some priorities that I could easily say no with many valuable excuses...
( example of this ~~is vacuuming the house everyday... is it necessary... not completely... does it really matter... not really... how important can it be?... come on it's dirt how important can it be?... I even have others giving me freedom to excuse vacuuming every day...but I've gone there ~ I tried that ... for me it doesn't work... something about the simple task of vacuuming everyday works for me... the house stays in order.... children are more motivated knowing the vacuum cleaner is on its way.,, ~family rule~ When I am vacuuming if I need to pick up something.....I may throw it away... ....and it has to be better for the children's allergies... I feel better through the day as I walk through the cleaner house.... and my sexy husband loves a clean home.....keeping him sexy...:) When I do not vacuum things start getting out of order... I feel irritated because of disorder... things cannot be found. Just a less satisfaction. So for me if chasing a vacuum through the home everyday brings so much good....It's worth the satisfaction.... Does it make sense~no~but it works for me...
At this moment I am in the mind battle of cooking breakfast every morning. Problem... I have to hustle through the morning minutes to have it ready by 7:00am so everyone can gather round the table sit down and enjoy... Is it worth it...oh yes... children are more motivated to be awake and dressed, when they see the cooked meal ready for them... then to pour their own cereal... but I fight laziness. After Ronnie and my tea time I sit there and watch the news another 10 mins. why....well not because the news is a great need... no just giving into the fact I don't want to move yet.... But the flip side is the satisfaction of my efforts.... so the battle lives on....and someday I will kick my butt and get back on to the importance of seeing the breakfast table presented and ready.
As I strive to find my visions of importance. I then~ fight to see my visions become reality. So I fight against the excuses and fight for the solutions... Will you see me washing floors at 10:00pm at night when Ronnie goes out on an on call...maybe... will you see messes in my house.... at times.... will you see me doing things on my priority list...yes, but you will also see me not getting to some of the priorities as well....The reason you see me doing some of the homemade stuff is for one~ I love natural stuff...also I do not want to let go of my creative side... I may have a lot on my plate, but I fight to not lose myself!!
It's a battle and I am a fighter... I often imagine after I die being in heaven and seeing my whole life... It is then that I can stand back and see what is important and what is not so important... It is from these face to face within myself ~ that keeps my motivation... my visions... my battle.... I will NOT be without regrets...but...I will NOT be without a fight! So what you see is not without the struggles.
Yes and I have many hands that help... Sierra is totally self motivated to bake cookies this Christmas season... do I want to bake all the cookies...?....Oh Yes I Do !... but the reality is I am busy and her motivation is the help I am in need of to be able to do all I want to accomplish... so I rest in her motivation... Ronald also helps with his interest in music... there are times I feel weary and lack motivation for it all... he brings me a song which brings me to smile and reminds me of the good of it all. His light heartiness reminds me to not focus on the heaviness... so needed for me :) Also my husband brings balance to my unbalanced mind at times... I will communicate so much with him... so as he hears me... then he has balance, encouragement, and cheery disposition... reminds me what life is about... Yes, life is hard ~ he agrees... but it is also wonderful... just to remember to not let the difficult stuff over take the beauty... :)
..................So this is a piece of my life I share with you...
"...fight the good fight.... ....Keep pressing on..." ~Creed
...funny as I read over this...with mp3 playing to help me stay focus to tune out all that is going on in my home...so I can tune in to focus....... ....so as I started saying funny as I read over this and get to the end of encouraging all to fight the good fight...Scott is singing fight the good fight. :)