The last two days I was in so a bad mood...with stresses or bad mood because of stresses...... So this morning...just realizing....I need to find a different focal point than the focal of stress....... I have two big hurdles that I just can't kick high enough to jump over and keep moving........and it is robbing me of joy and peace......... So I realize my thinking is just keeping me stuck in the rut....need to look higher...and get a vision that can jump over the hurdles and keep running this good race of life....instead of tripping over the same darn two hurdles.
So this is my challenge for the moment...and hope to find the sense of freedom to enjoy and have the comfort of peace.......
This moment reminds me of a song...........
So for now.......I am breaking away....need something to pick me up.....break....away......from everybody....everything....and take myself to higher places! I wont stop and I wont stay in this rut!!!!! So bring my mind to meditate....and climb aboard wings that soar....that can lift me high enough to kick butt and jump hurdles....so I can continue on in this journey......
~Years ago people took time to prepare for their burial... one way was to build their own coffin....so in this thought...I'm thinking~~~
~If we could write our own funeral sermon what would we write.
I was thinking about how we sometimes put our funeral sermons in the hands of... at times someone who doesn't know us too deeply.
~So what if we were to write our own sermon what would we say.....well my thinking started with what I would not say....I would not say any personal goodbyes....for I would for sure mess that up....like forgetting someone.... or it would be too intense...so just leave the whole personal goodbyes....out of the sermon.
~But really...it has trigger my thoughts to what would I actually write....which I think I could spend the rest of my life writing....and revising.
~I am challenge to fight the battles going on within my mind. My mind wants to wonder to all those situations that are bringing me down. Yet, I look to God and say "I need to stay focus on... only You" In Philippians 4:8 I am reminded to think on these things~
Philippians 4:8 (The Message)
8-9Summing it all up, friends, I'd say you'll do best by filling your minds and meditating on things true, noble, reputable, authentic, compelling, gracious—the best, not the worst; the beautiful, not the ugly; things to praise, not things to curse. Put into practice what you learned from me, what you heard and saw and realized. Do that, and God, who makes everything work together, will work you into his most excellent harmonies.
~So I challenge my mind with this and even get interrupted with the thoughts that are upsetting me and (STOP)... myself... say as I am talking to Him... "God"... "Help me to stay focus!" and take my thoughts captive to this verse once again. Even in the midst of captivating my thoughts I find my body shaky for the challenges of my journey these past 3 weeks and up to this moment have taken me on a roller coaster of thoughts and emotions. Now I find myself writing this so maybe as I put down in ink some of my reflections along this journey... I can create and look at this like a part of the map.... that as I find myself feeling lost or controlled by the strong winds that seem to take me adrift... I can once again read this and set my course. In Mark 10:27 I am reminded that "With Me" this part of my journey ~is~ impossible...but "With God" to walk through this darken, wilderness ~is~ possible. ~and~ I am not to worry for like Matt. 6:27....can I even add anything to my life through worry...? So in Philip 4:6 I am not to worry... instead ~
Philippians 4:6 (The Message)
6-7Don't fret or worry. Instead of worrying, pray. Let petitions and praises shape your worries into prayers, letting God know your concerns. Before you know it, a sense of God's wholeness, everything coming together for good, will come and settle you down. It's wonderful what happens when Christ displaces worry at the center of your life.
~hum.... Christ displaces worry at the center of my life.... Just like in my mind Philippians 4:8 says I can think of positives instead of negatives... By shaping my worries into prayers... He displaces the worry at the center of my life...I no longer have a sense of worry....but a sense of God's wholeness, everything coming together for good...will come and settle me down. I should reflect to this verse as a reminder of God's direction when Ronnie says.... "Terrie calm down"... this verse would be the direction to know how to calm down... for in myself to find calm is not so easy at times, but to take all my worries into prayers, to let God know my concerns... that is the path to take to find myself once again in that beautiful field of wild flowers with the warmth of the sun comforting my achy body and all I can do is to look up for His yoke is easy and His burden is light... I look up and smile as I say to Him... "life is good"
So I am on a journey and find myself on paths that are steep...rocky...cold and dark...I feel lost...I stop pull out the map and look at the roads...find a sense of direction...get caught up in my mind the couple turns I need to take...and press on in my journey...and believe I will find my way out of here!
So in my search...which I don't know how it lead me to youtube.....but I found this video....very disturbing to my hope in thinking my passion and desires for being a housewife could be encouraged in earlier years...
....I find this video....which leaves me in open mouth gasping.....no way...no wonder women have turn the course of things. The words shared...I believe is from a book back in the day...written to be helpful to a wife...to be a better housewife...?
....so in much disappointment... I wonder where is the zest for the passion of being a housewife... ...I do not take my passions lightly....I desire to be an amazing woman, sister, wife, mother, grandmother.... , but feel the world says..."just a housewife"........so in thought....several hours.....as I think of the off balances of yesterday and today...I wonder what can bring balance and that drives me back to His words.....
...yesterday and today thinking does not even line up with biblical words for us women....... How did we get off course... so in the upset-ness...which is so understandable...I see why women have turned the environment around....but it seems to be off balance....For I... as much am offended by this video with words from the 50's...I am tired of the down grading of men!!!! You see it in commercials, television shows... at times in people's speech...
...Did our fears of the past create an off balance in us now... How did we get so off balance and I ask myself where is the balance...... Which leads my mind back to our creature.... ...and in search for His direction....
....I see our creator loves us equally ...yet we as man and women we have our differences... ...the Proverbs 31 woman is of much noble character...strong.. intelligent...diligent... focused... hospitable... providing... nurturing... creative.... dignified... wise... intuned... honorable... admirable... ...I am sure so much more can be added here.... Then to find in Ephesians 5...Submit...begins here with...verse 21...Submit to one another out of reverence for Christ... ...I know I say Submit...and everyone wants to add a thought...but in calmness...lets relax and try to reflect on God‘s words... ......Submit to one another out of reverence for Christ.. ...which leads to the next verse in saying Wives, submit yourselves to your own husbands, as you do to the Lord....., but I do not think the verse 22 is forgetting verse 21~~~ I think I see my submitting to my own husband more like the...to give over to my own husband...to present ~ for his approval/support, (don’t take this lightly...I do not see approval as a quick permission!!!...that‘s why I added support...) ....I consider what he has to say....yet this is not without me as his wife having a voice....he hears my words and I hear his words...together we have discussions sometimes at length.. in this length of time he may change his thoughts or I may change mine...but ...then with prayer and respect I defer.... Our life is not so cut and dry...he says~I do...much depth ....maybe that could be more understood as reverence..... Anyway every couple needs to find their way...to what God means in all this for them..., ....but then God moves on to how the husbands are to love the wives....,.....could of I created this any better...? ...to love to those depths is a lifetime to learn and grow in.... .....So just a thought to add here...the beginning of Chap. 6 starts by saying Children, obey........ ....notice in all God instructs for the wife or the husband...He never says the word obey to either one!!!!!
I am to submit to my own husband in everything.... to give over...to present....to submit a plan(my ideas)....to yield oneself to another... .....I submit to my own husband....my love.........I share my thoughts, hopes, pains, visions, dreams, differences...as he shares with me......in addition to him sharing with me... he is to love me, just as Christ loved the church....I take my responsibility of submission...in faith...with much love and prayer.... I like when I come across with presenting myself in a humble manner...for like I said earlier...I see our creator loves us equally ...I am not better then my husband and he is not better then his wife .....then out of reverence......feeling...or attitude of deep respect to Christ....so in much prayer ...we find our way.... for us.... the direction God leads.
Where has woman or man lost their vision for all this.... ............balance can only happen when we go back to our creator... ..........I love being a woman...I want to learn to be the best for me!
Notes from dictionary.com ~ Submit... –verb (used with object) 1. to give over or yield to the power or authority of another (often used reflexively). 2. to subject to some kind of treatment or influence. 3. to present for the approval, consideration, or decision of another or others: to submit a plan; to submit an application. 4. to state or urge with deference; suggest or propose (usually fol. by a clause): I submit that full proof should be required. –verb (used without object) 5. to yield oneself to the power or authority of another: to submit to a conqueror. 6. to allow oneself to be subjected to some kind of treatment: to submit to chemotherapy. 7. to defer to another's judgment, opinion, decision, etc.: I submit to your superior judgment. ~Reverence... –noun 1. a feeling or attitude of deep respect tinged with awe; veneration. 2. the outward manifestation of this feeling: to pay reverence. 3. a gesture indicative of deep respect; an obeisance, bow, or curtsy. 4. the state of being revered. –verb (used with object) 6. to regard or treat with reverence; venerate: One should reverence God and His laws.
In the spice...I decided to search some web pages for encouraging support for being a housewife. I chose to change the typical word of Homemaker...back to Housewife...for I felt we lost some respect for our skill... So some sites I found in my quick search... ~ http://www.wikihow.com/Be-a-Good-Housewife ~ http://www.ehow.com/how_2094530_be-a-housewife.html ~ http://www.heksie.com/housewife/ ~ http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Homemaker (Well in closing this post...my internet was interupted...so I lost my closing. I was then discouraged to submit the post, but since then I have be traveling on my journey and fell I need to submit this unfinish post so I can continue on with the pages that are going on within.)
